Until My Soul Finds You Again - Chapter 5

Sometimes, the deepest wounds are not caused by words.

Sometimes, they are caused by silence.

The next morning, the atmosphere in the classroom felt unusually heavy.

When Chen Mo entered, his eyes instinctively wanted to search for the seat by the window.

For Su Qingyi.

But this time, he stopped himself.

Instead, he lowered his head and walked to a different seat.

A seat far away from hers.

Near the window, Su Qingyi quietly watched everything.

The book in her hands remained open.

Yet she hadn’t read a single page.

He didn’t even look at me…

A strange ache spread through her chest.

For the first time since they had met, the distance between them felt real.

The entire day felt wrong.

No shared conversations.

No exchanged glances.

No smiles hidden between classes.

Even their classmates noticed.

“Did they argue?”

“It looks serious.”

The whispers traveled through the room.

Neither of them paid attention.

Because they were too busy fighting battles inside their own hearts.

During lunch break, Su Qingyi sat with her friends.

But every few minutes, her eyes drifted toward Chen Mo.

He was sitting alone.

Quietly eating.

Quietly avoiding her.

Why am I the one feeling upset?

She frowned.

He was the one who got angry first.

So why does this hurt?

Across the room, Chen Mo wasn’t feeling any better.

His food had long gone cold.

Maybe I overreacted.

The thought appeared again and again.

Yet another voice immediately followed.

But I didn’t like seeing her with him.

Is that really wrong?

He sighed.

Several times he considered walking over to her.

Several times he stopped himself.

And just like that, pride quietly built a wall between two people who only wanted to be understood.

By the end of the day, they still hadn’t exchanged a single word.

No goodbye.

No messages.

Nothing.

That evening, rain began falling over Hangzhou.

At first, it was only a light drizzle.

Then gradually, it became heavier.

The sound of rain echoed against the dormitory windows.

Chen Mo stood alone by the glass, staring at the lights reflected on the wet streets below.

His thoughts inevitably drifted back to another rainy evening.

The day they had shared an umbrella for the first time.

The day everything had begun.

A bitter smile appeared on his face.

That was one of the happiest days of my life.

He unlocked his phone.

Their chat window appeared immediately.

His fingers hovered over the screen.

I’m sorry.

He typed the words.

Then deleted them.

A few moments later, he tried again.

Have you eaten dinner?

Delete.

Again.

Delete.

Finally, he locked the phone and placed it on the table.

“If she cares…”

He whispered.

“She’ll message me.”

At that exact moment, across campus, Su Qingyi was doing the same thing.

She sat on her bed, staring at her phone.

Several unfinished messages filled the screen.

Why are you ignoring me?

Delete.

I didn’t like what you said yesterday.

Delete.

She buried her face in her pillow.

“Why is this so difficult?”

Outside, the rain continued falling.

Minutes passed.

Then suddenly, Su Qingyi sat up.

Enough.

She grabbed an umbrella.

And walked out into the rain.

Back in the boys’ dormitory, Chen Mo remained by the window.

Then he saw a familiar figure approaching through the storm.

His heartbeat stopped.

Su Qingyi.

Without thinking, he rushed downstairs.

The moment he stepped outside, cold rain hit his face.

A few meters away, Su Qingyi stood beneath her umbrella.

Her hair had already been dampened by the wind.

Neither spoke.

The rain filled the silence between them.

Finally, Su Qingyi broke it.

“You’re an idiot.”

Chen Mo blinked.

“What?”

“You heard me.”

Her voice trembled slightly.

“You’re an idiot.”

For some reason, hearing those words made him want to laugh.

“Why?”

Su Qingyi looked directly at him.

“Because you actually think I’d choose someone else over you.”

The words struck him harder than the rain.

“Then why were you laughing with Li Jun?”

The question escaped before he could stop it.

Su Qingyi rolled her eyes.

“Because he said something funny.”

“Do you expect me to stop talking to every boy in school?”

“No.”

Chen Mo shook his head.

“That’s not what I meant.”

“Then what did you mean?”

For a moment, he struggled to answer.

Then he finally spoke the truth.

The truth he had been avoiding.

“I was jealous.”

The rain seemed quieter.

“I didn’t like seeing him so close to you.”

His voice lowered.

“Because I like you.”

The words hung in the air.

Simple.

Honest.

Real.

Su Qingyi’s expression softened immediately.

“And you think I don’t feel the same?”

Chen Mo froze.

She took a step closer.

“When girls talk to you, I don’t like it either.”

A faint blush appeared on her face.

“I just didn’t want to admit it.”

For the first time in two days, both of them smiled.

The tension between them slowly disappeared.

Chen Mo rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly.

“I’m sorry.”

Su Qingyi nodded.

“I’m sorry too.”

The rain continued falling.

Yet somehow, it no longer felt cold.

Without thinking, Chen Mo adjusted his umbrella and moved closer.

Just enough to shield her from the wind.

Just like the first time.

Su Qingyi noticed.

And smiled.

A warm smile.

The kind that always made his heart race.

“Friends again?” Chen Mo asked.

Su Qingyi looked at him.

Then shook her head.

Chen Mo blinked.

“No?”

She stepped closer.

Close enough to hear each other’s breathing.

Close enough to hear each other’s hearts.

Then she whispered,

“Something more than friends.”

The words instantly erased every trace of doubt inside him.

For the first time, Chen Mo reached out and gently held her hand.

Su Qingyi didn’t pull away.

Instead, she held it tighter.

Beneath the rain.

Beneath the city lights.

Without grand confessions.

Without promises.

Without dramatic declarations.

They found their way back to each other.

Because love isn’t about never hurting one another.

It’s about choosing to return.

Again and again.

No matter how difficult the journey becomes.

And neither of them knew it yet—

This was only the beginning of their story.

A story that would become beautiful.

Painful.

Heartbreaking.

And unforgettable.